It's so dark in here sometimes
Lonely and more than a little cold
I shiver with anticipation
of nothing
Either now or again
What hope is there for one
who has known this kind of love
and had it taken from her
to find anything further but a poor, pale substitute
And even then, it would be unfair
to hold another up to your memory
To the sweet, tender truth of you
Without time to tarnish your brightness
how could another hope to be anything to me
but the shadow of a love that yet may never die
Our flame burned bright and true
The warmth real and enduring
I never felt anything but cherished,
cared for and utterly accepted
I never felt that I needed to be anything
or anyone other that what I was
You were the one constant reminder in my life
that God was good to me
and all would be well as long as you were beside me
And now the hours stretch into endless dark nights
and unrelenting days and weeks
as time passes without you
and yet I remain, bewildered and bruised
While I cannot be so reckless as to be angry
with the God who gives and who takes away
Surely I am crushed beneath His hand
What was taken cannot be restored
And if this is mercy
I cannot hope to survive the judgment
Tried and found wanting
Wanting and found alone
Searching in vain for that unfound door
den 21 dec 08
for my one true love
who lingers in the shadows of the past
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